Alhamdulillah Allah izinkan aku meluaskan pemandangan (cewah) which is one of my wishlist yg telah lama kupendam ewah ewah ewah.

i'm still thinking whether or not to tell about my trip. nanti lah kalau rasa macam over excited nak mencapub gua tulis la wahahaha.

our group was led by this young guy who was only a bit older than me. entah rasa macam familiar je memula tapi bukan lah kot.

we discuss some stuff while riding on the trains. i mainly asked him about the local culture and whether or not what has been potrayed on screen were actually what happened. and the answer was almost a definite yes. haha.

anyway, other stuff we talked.. well.. it kind of tick me off. one thing is, i really don't read a lot (mengaku terus wahaha). even if you know much more than anyone in this whole wide world, doesn't the knowledge you gained should actually humbling you down than becoming a tool for you to show off how of much you know? Besides, if somebody else could tell me why bother reading kan wahahaha.

also, i do not have anything anyone who wanted to study, work or even live in overseas for a while. good way of gaining experience. but remember that once upon a time, taxpayers funded your study. and the investment is not for nothing. people had hopes in you... that when you finished your study, when you came back, when you joined the society, you'd been an agent of change to improve our life. even me and other local graduates from government universities who did not receives full scholarships like you guys, we are still being partly funded and society had hopes in us. the hope that we will be improving our own society in any way we could. sadly, no one sees through this. and sadly, i only realize this after that night. Allah probably wanted to teach me something. and now i'm re-calculating my decision. hoping that this brief (almost) 2 years of working would be enough. much sadder that some of these graduates fly off somewhere else hoping for a better lives for themselves and never come back.

oh well. i don't read a lot. my close mind do not know as much as you do anyway.
and my close minded self only know that if i do not be part of the movement to improve the society which helps me grow, than somebody else will. and that somebody isn't necessary from our own society no?

sign off.