you know how me and my single friends always talk about how we wanna get married?
now i'm starting to want kids. i used to wonder why would a single woman wants to be a foster mom? i mean, just enjoy your life as it is. back then abang even argued with my mak about marriage where the verdict was that we need to get married married so we'd have someone to live for. i mean, we live for Allah but you know, we need that human who'd give us the reason to live. a husband and kids.

what i'm vaguely trying to say is that i, in some sort of other universe, am a little tiny weeny bit agreeing with mak. well, i for one had argued with mak about not getting married and just live with parents (which she strongly object with pointing out death and whatnot). perhaps living with little kids for a while triggered that motherly instinct. i don't mean that exact meaning of motherly instinct but err yeahhh.. it's sort of like those movies where anti-kids had to take care of little ones and starting to want that kind of life. like The Pacifier.

having kids, i really can't imagine it. what's with me not living my life properly, how can i even manage other humans? i hope mak must've gone through this thought before.

i guess i'm taking one step towards growing up. or maturity. or whatever.
i miss my annoying niece and nephew.