i'm pretty devastated today. all year long i've had one place to go in my mind. it seems hopeless now.
even more hopeless when you were stuck at home nursing your (although) loved ones while scrolling instagram looking at how friends are all happy going through what you wish you had. there's even the big question going around your mind. even worse, when you knew that deep down, although the remuneration looks great, you really so dearly do not want it.

so really. should i go?

all i could think of now is, He is the best of planner. always have, always will.