i just missed it. i had prepared for it last week and God has made my path easy but i was at fault. i should've mailed it last week. right there. right after the sky cleared off. God. i'm so slow and clumsy. i really am frustrated with myself right now. this is also not the first time. in fact, i've been slow most of the time, resulting in a lot of missed opportunities.

i had this ideas of some positive stuff to post here 10 minutes ago. and now they're all gone. much with the hopes and resentment towards myself.

i have a lot more to reflect.