banyak gila benda nak rant kat sini. but i choose only one. hahaha..

tonight kita cakap pasal jodoh. kahwin. couple. ah semua benda tu lah!

you see, menuju penghujung 20an tak seindah khabar. actually tak pernah dengar yang indah pun haha. bila kau dah mula masuk umur menghampiri 30an, tiba-tiba segala kawan/saudara/keluarga sekeliling pinggang kau mula usaha carikan calon untuk kau. i am not sure if everyone is also going through the same phase with me atau memang Tuhan letakkan time aku sekarang ni untuk berada di fasa ini. i mean, you know what i mean i know what you mean you know........ all these while i'm still with him, no such thing ever happened! sepertinya Tuhan memelihara saya begitu rupa ya...

ah just sharing some that i remember. sorang member nak offer member dia duda anak dua la. lepastu marketkan ustaz hensem la. lepastu pakcik terus cakap "ha ada kawan-kawan yang kosong lagi tak" kat asben sepupu yang sebaya aku. also one time, a friend, out of sudden wassep gua "kau nak kawen takk nak berkenalan dengan orang takkk" like whattttttttttt. hahahaha. seriusli tak pernah langsung la sebelum tahun ni! while i enjoy it with a good laugh, i'm honestly not ready yet. biarlah hati ini terbuka bila yang lalu benar-benar berlalu. aiceh...

people around me are more anxious about me not getting married yet. i've come to term with myself that marriage will happen when Allah wills. seriusli it's only april tapi sedara/kawan cakap pasal nak kunun kenalkan ni meningkat pula ya. tak tau nak rasa apa. hahaha..

to each that come, buat aku akan terfikir. jenis overthinking kan. hahaha.. contohnya bila kawan aku cakap pasal member duda anak dua, terfikir la aku eee boleh ke aku ni ada anak ekspress. n the anser is of course a definite no. haha.. n then bila member tiba-tiba wassep nak kenalkan orang, aku jadi terfikir ee serius ke ni siapa la ni eee dia pernah jumpa aku ke. lepastu bila member marketkan ustaz, menerawang jadiknya aku stalk dan fikir eee takleh ngam la dengan orang macam ni macam bakal banyak kena berkorban perasaan je plus macam dunia berbeza sangat. oh mengggg.. menuju 30 ni nak tak nak memang kita semua dah ada baggage masing-masing..

in less than 6 months, some have called me giving all these comments for being choosy. yang main anggapkan tak kahwin sebab memilih pun iye. tell me whether finding righteous spouse and being clicked/ngam is being choosy? the person called me being choosy also used to tuntut fasakh but failed n currently always shared posts about her cheating husband. errrr.... i think u understand it more than anyone that being this kind of choosy isn't a bad idea?

i don't need to justify this but i honestly am fine being single now..

i'm not in a rush to get into another relationship. biarlah jodoh datang pada masa yang sesuai.

yang lebih penting, moga hubungan kita dengan Tuhan lebih dekat & baik. yang ni lagi penting kot daripada fikir jodoh huhuhu...

buttt.. i'm enjoying this phase while it lasts!! :)