hmm. ape benda la aku nak merepek ni.

banyak je benda yang aku nak merepek ni tapi tu lah.. tu lah tuu.. huhuhu

anyway mari kita mulakan dengan betapa charming nya park bo gum nyiahahahahaha!! last time aku tengok love in the moonlight takde la nampak dia ni hensem mana tpai baru-baru ni tiba-tibaaaa la kannnnn.. tiba-tiba sangat dia hensem. hahahaha. boy. am back to crazying over k-celebs. it's been about 10 years i think. semenjak start asasi dan kemudian jumpa partner, aku langsung stop gilakan kureaaaaaaa. about time before hallyu wave infected people around me. seingat aku, running man la yang berjaya menambat hati orang-orang yang kutuk kpop. hahahaha. well.. maybe i was a little busy with life and i finally had someone real i could called as partner. kpop ni dulu sekadar mengisi kekosongan yang tak kosong agichewwww...

butttttttttttttt. since the space if getting empty again i guess that's the reason why i'm starting to go krezi over k-celebs again. hahaha. nampak dah pattern tu kan. layan je lah. but at 27/8, aku dah tak boleh nak layan k-celebs macam dulu-dulu. i'm going krezi but i got limit now. i mean, i used to go crazy over cute kpoppers in youtube and berangan them being my boyfriend (sedar diri berangan ok jgn risau) and so so so want to know about their daily life & want to meet them. but now even park bogum yang charming ni, i like seeing him smile (charming takleh argue hahahaha) but as much as i love it, i only view it as his work. and he has his own life outside of this. mungkin sebab aku pun dah bekerja sekarang maka aku dah boleh emphatize dengan perbezaan kerja dan kehidupan. mungkin jugak sebab kematangan atau puberty hits me like a truck gituh kata anak-anak tuiterrr. man.. working really changed me. hahaha.

well park bo gum / bogummy.. i wish you a successful career. and as much as i'd love to see you being a successful celebrity, i wish that you're healthy and happy with your life.. don't sacrifice your life for your job.. it's not worth it. your own life is more precious... i hope you're going to meet a nice girl who is going to be your partner through good times & bad times..

this goes without saying to all k-celebs.. i enjoy your performance but please don't throw your life away... sedih senanye tengok celebs umur dah 40++ single and selalu cakap pasal lonely tak berteman. that's why i hope that bogummy will meet someone nice that suit him.. entertainment industry can be really harsh especially some of them are being exploited. contoh kes dbsk dulu la. diorang sign up time budak-budak, dapat offer macam wow, lepastu bukan orang senang-senang lak tuh. so it's like stepping on gold mine lah kan. but too bad they were being exploited in such a way... mungkin sebab ni aku macam dah tak mampu nak fangirling sangat macam dulu. see.. me fangirling now is so much different than before. i view them as human and worker before celebrities. i guess working has taught me at least this much.

wow cakap pasal k-celeb je dah berapa perenggan haha. anyway bercakap tentang emphatizing bogummy, ada sesuatu yang menjentik hatikuhhh baru-baru ini. i saw my friends tweeted about not signing up for gomen & other job searching site. and then i realised that if my life hadn't happen like how it happened for the past 3 years, mungkin aku juga tergolong sama dengan kawan-kawanku itu huhuhu. i think, this journey has build me some empathy towards those who didn't have it easy in some aspects of their life. aku nak elaborate tapi macam malas haha banyak sangat dah cakap kat atas tadi.

for now, i'm taking life as it is. belajar untuk redha dengan ketentuan Illahi. belajar untuk sabar dengan perkara-perkara yang aku takkan mampu ubah sendiri. belajar untuk meletakkan Tuhan di atas segalanya.

anyway, i have an interesting classmate. actually tak la interesting mana tapi dia mengingatkan aku pada diri aku yang carefree pada suatu masa dahulu. zaman degree yang penuh lucu-lucu. tak tau la berapa umur dia but i'm guessing at least 3-4 years younger. at least okay. could be more haha mujur theyolls sering tersalah sangka ai sebaya-sebaya theyolls juaa :P . well it's going to end soon so i'm just enjoying my time as much as i could. moga Allah redha.