no end of year post here. sebab malas. dan sebab dah buat kat blog satu lagi. haha

selalu je nak blog tapi malas nak membukak nye. nak menaip kat phone tak sama. takde bunyi taktuktaktuktaktuk menaip tu. feeling lebih kannnnn...

banyak sangat benda aku nak merepek sorang-sorang. tentang kehidupan. tentang moving on. tentang menerima. couldn't find the right words. but one thing i can say for 2021 is the year i let go (finally lol).

memasuki 2022 dengan bermacam pembaharuan yang tak dirancang namun diterima dengan hati yang terbuka. i felt a sense of relieve when i finally let go. of course it's nice to have someone to talk to. someone to lean on to when everything seems to fall apart. but i learned that those are not meant for me. i have to learn to stand up on my feet again. to not rely on someone else on my feels. and that one will give their every might if they wanted to stay.

so i've learned to build my walls again. to enjoy life. to be okay. to be cheeky again. hahaha

insya Allah turning 31 this year. it sounds much bigger than 30. i've never imagine what being 31 feels like. i did thought i'd get married in mid 20s but didn't think further than that.