aku bukan rebel. tapi sejujurnya, bila fikir dalam-dalam, sebenarnya aku tak bersedia lagi pun nak kawen. to have partner by my side, yes it's nice. tapi entah lah. mungkin belum sampai masa kot? belum terbukak hati lagi nak kawen. umur memang tak pernah berkurang pun. makin lama makin bertambah kawan-kawan yang mendirikan mahligai indah bersama pilihan hati (ewah!). sejujurnya, belum pernah terbit lagi perasaan "i want to get married tooooooo!" bila tengok orang kawen. the ceremony is always nice. their happy faces are nice too. and the baby that come afterwards is even nicer. tapi entahlah. mungkin takut bila fikir tanggungjawab yang mendatang. atau mungkin sebab dalam otak dah set tak nak kawen dalam masa terdekat ni. i'm more eager to learn. untuk tambah ilmu. fardhu ain & kifayah. jadi senang jek nak tackle aku ni sebenarnya. sukakan ilmu dan sukakanlah saya. wahahahaha.
well.. I plan. He plans. and definitely His plans are always the best.
Sunday, January 25, 2015
Monday, January 5, 2015
i always playfully told him that he entered our alma mater just to meet me. wonder how true it is..
you know all those famous proposal stories with gimmicks, or the amazing love stories of how two people accidentally met, or the dramatic forbidden love and whatnot, well, mine is not even close to that. it's just a plain story. non-dramatic no romeo no juliet. only two souls who seems to click well enough and happened to not lose contact up till now.
i love my plain story :)
you know all those famous proposal stories with gimmicks, or the amazing love stories of how two people accidentally met, or the dramatic forbidden love and whatnot, well, mine is not even close to that. it's just a plain story. non-dramatic no romeo no juliet. only two souls who seems to click well enough and happened to not lose contact up till now.
i love my plain story :)
Friday, January 2, 2015
malam tu tak berapa la nak sejuk macam yang aku bayangkan. sejuk-sejuk biasa macam kat tempat kita-kita je. bas bergerak meluncur dengan tenang. pukul 1 pagi. dari airport pergi hotel pertama. sebab letih hampir 9 jam atas kapal, aku lena dengan tenang juga. sampai kat r&r. lepas tu sambung perjalanan. aku tak boleh tidur langsung dah lepas tu. mungkin sebab kat tanah tumpah darahku ewah ewah dah memang waktu aku bangun. plus, aku nak sangat-sangat terkencing masa tu. padahal baru lepas berenti r&r kannn. haha.
lepas tu aku merenung ke luar jendela je lah. masya Allah! serius aku terkagum terkesima ter apa semua lahh bila tengok bintang-bintang bekerlipan kat langit sepanjang perjalanan tu. aku bayangkan, ada satu rombongan manusia nomad yang tengah berehat depan khemah sambil duduk sebelah unggun api, menikmati lukisan alam. aku cuba nak ambik gambar tapi aku tak tahu kenapa Allah tak izinkan. jadi secara diam-diam, dalam bas yang makin sejuk, dalam rombongan manusia yg keletihan dan kaki semakin membengkak (aku la salah sorang tu hahaha), aku nikmati al-buruj yang tak pernah aku tengok kat tanah air sendiri sebelum ni.
:)
lepas tu aku merenung ke luar jendela je lah. masya Allah! serius aku terkagum terkesima ter apa semua lahh bila tengok bintang-bintang bekerlipan kat langit sepanjang perjalanan tu. aku bayangkan, ada satu rombongan manusia nomad yang tengah berehat depan khemah sambil duduk sebelah unggun api, menikmati lukisan alam. aku cuba nak ambik gambar tapi aku tak tahu kenapa Allah tak izinkan. jadi secara diam-diam, dalam bas yang makin sejuk, dalam rombongan manusia yg keletihan dan kaki semakin membengkak (aku la salah sorang tu hahaha), aku nikmati al-buruj yang tak pernah aku tengok kat tanah air sendiri sebelum ni.
:)
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
i used to loathe crying. back in high school, i almost didn't cry for years. almost.
hate it since people would easily noticed the fact that i just cried. eyes bulging, nose turned red.
once, i cried for the whole day. it was baaaad. sore eyes. really sore eyes.
you see. i've started working a few months ago. to be honest, i'm in love-hate relationship with my job. love the job scope, love the fact that i'm learning sort of different but still in the same field of what i studied in university. oh did i tell you i've just graduated. Alhamdulillah completed as scheduled. wait what was i saying? oh.. my job. well, the lovable part are just that. other things, well let's just say, not really fond of them. but still, hitting the fifth month now, i'm starting to get used to them. not really talking much everyday. decided not to get involved in any gossip or whatnot.
i'm in a crossroad. whether or not i should continue working after probationary period ends. like i said, i do love what i learned here but that's probably the only thing that keeps me going. hope i'm gonna sort it out soon insya Allah.
this year, i'd say, is the year i'm moving to adulthood. start off the year with ending my classes in university then began my practical training. i still do miss that place though. with the people and environment. as of now, half of us has gone, leaving the really loyal staff around. may we all meet again in jannatulfirdaus insya Allah. six months ago, i was so hesitant whether or not to continue working there. and i believe Allah is the best of planners and He sure has put me where i should be now. insya Allah, He'll keep on showing me the way, well in His on way, of where should i go after this.
i'd be lying if i say i don't miss university life. i really really do miss it. i miss it so much i'd rather take another degree. yes, that far. however, after knocking some senses into my head, i realized that it's already time to move on. miss the free time i had, miss my classmates, miss the fact that i don't have to put up a face when i meet the people around, miss the fact that i could go to talk whenever or wherever i wanted to, miss my carefree self, oh the list won't stop i guess?
the year ended with somewhat one blissful journey Allah has blessed me with. answering His call, who wouldn't want to? i believe He has blessed me with rizq to make the journey at such young age. indeed, it was a trip like no other. i still suffer from jet lag though. haha. a year back when my parents brought it up, i was somewhat hesitant. many things came up to my mind. i guess that's the Him pre-calling me to make the journey. days, months went on and when my parents really registered our seat, i was like, this is it. this is so it man. hahaha. whaaaaat -.-". it was probably one of the most "capitalist-support" trip but it didn't change the whole point of it. i'm back safe and sound now Alhamdulillah and missing it so much. hoping He will call for me again soon :)
so that's one-year long summary. new year will come soon insya Allah. probably major changes will happen. hopefully.
wassalam.
hate it since people would easily noticed the fact that i just cried. eyes bulging, nose turned red.
once, i cried for the whole day. it was baaaad. sore eyes. really sore eyes.
you see. i've started working a few months ago. to be honest, i'm in love-hate relationship with my job. love the job scope, love the fact that i'm learning sort of different but still in the same field of what i studied in university. oh did i tell you i've just graduated. Alhamdulillah completed as scheduled. wait what was i saying? oh.. my job. well, the lovable part are just that. other things, well let's just say, not really fond of them. but still, hitting the fifth month now, i'm starting to get used to them. not really talking much everyday. decided not to get involved in any gossip or whatnot.
i'm in a crossroad. whether or not i should continue working after probationary period ends. like i said, i do love what i learned here but that's probably the only thing that keeps me going. hope i'm gonna sort it out soon insya Allah.
this year, i'd say, is the year i'm moving to adulthood. start off the year with ending my classes in university then began my practical training. i still do miss that place though. with the people and environment. as of now, half of us has gone, leaving the really loyal staff around. may we all meet again in jannatulfirdaus insya Allah. six months ago, i was so hesitant whether or not to continue working there. and i believe Allah is the best of planners and He sure has put me where i should be now. insya Allah, He'll keep on showing me the way, well in His on way, of where should i go after this.
i'd be lying if i say i don't miss university life. i really really do miss it. i miss it so much i'd rather take another degree. yes, that far. however, after knocking some senses into my head, i realized that it's already time to move on. miss the free time i had, miss my classmates, miss the fact that i don't have to put up a face when i meet the people around, miss the fact that i could go to talk whenever or wherever i wanted to, miss my carefree self, oh the list won't stop i guess?
the year ended with somewhat one blissful journey Allah has blessed me with. answering His call, who wouldn't want to? i believe He has blessed me with rizq to make the journey at such young age. indeed, it was a trip like no other. i still suffer from jet lag though. haha. a year back when my parents brought it up, i was somewhat hesitant. many things came up to my mind. i guess that's the Him pre-calling me to make the journey. days, months went on and when my parents really registered our seat, i was like, this is it. this is so it man. hahaha. whaaaaat -.-". it was probably one of the most "capitalist-support" trip but it didn't change the whole point of it. i'm back safe and sound now Alhamdulillah and missing it so much. hoping He will call for me again soon :)
so that's one-year long summary. new year will come soon insya Allah. probably major changes will happen. hopefully.
wassalam.
Saturday, December 27, 2014
Alhamdulillah. selamat pergi dan kembali. apa yang terjadi cuma Tuhan saje yang tahu. segala puji untuk Allah dan Dia sahaja yang selayaknya dipuji.
satu je harapan aku. istiqomah untuk terus amalkan apa yang aku cuba praktikkan dalam sepuluh hari lepas. aku anggap macam ramadhan lah. permulaan untuk sesuatu yang baru.
dan ini, untuk rutin harian lama yang baru. biidznillah.
:)
satu je harapan aku. istiqomah untuk terus amalkan apa yang aku cuba praktikkan dalam sepuluh hari lepas. aku anggap macam ramadhan lah. permulaan untuk sesuatu yang baru.
dan ini, untuk rutin harian lama yang baru. biidznillah.
:)
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
aku tak tau kalau najib boleh hidup senang hati. sebagai seorang pengurus kewangan pembinaan kecil-kecilan dan masih sangat baru, nak tolong bahagikan duit orang sebenarnya bukan senang. i mean, secara teknikalnya senang jer. tambah tolak darab bahagi susun susun sikit, dah siap.
TAPI
bila aku fikir panjang sikit, berat wooo nak atur duit orang. kita tak pegang pun duit tu, kita cuma diamanahkan untuk kata ya ke tak patut orang dapat duit orang lain. gitewww. dalam 3 bulan rasanya ada sekali yang aku memang betul-betul nak putus urat. putus urat kecil-kecilan dah banyak kali. tapi tu pun atas kesalahan aku sendiri la. haha.
jadi berbalik kepada najib yang diamanahkan untuk mengagihkan wang yang bukan miliknya, yang mampu menggugat atau menguntungkan kehidupan berjuta (eh ke billion ha penduduk malaysia?) orang yang lain, kalau sebenar benarnya dia menjalankan amanah yg dipertanggungjawabkan pada dia (hanya Allah yang tahu), aku tak rasa dia boleh balik rumah dah bersenang lenang di atas tilam empuk sentiasa.
beratnya amanah tu, Tuhan saje yang tahu.
sebenarnya aku baru tahu PM adalah menteri kewangan ehek ehek ehek ehek kbaiiii
TAPI
bila aku fikir panjang sikit, berat wooo nak atur duit orang. kita tak pegang pun duit tu, kita cuma diamanahkan untuk kata ya ke tak patut orang dapat duit orang lain. gitewww. dalam 3 bulan rasanya ada sekali yang aku memang betul-betul nak putus urat. putus urat kecil-kecilan dah banyak kali. tapi tu pun atas kesalahan aku sendiri la. haha.
jadi berbalik kepada najib yang diamanahkan untuk mengagihkan wang yang bukan miliknya, yang mampu menggugat atau menguntungkan kehidupan berjuta (eh ke billion ha penduduk malaysia?) orang yang lain, kalau sebenar benarnya dia menjalankan amanah yg dipertanggungjawabkan pada dia (hanya Allah yang tahu), aku tak rasa dia boleh balik rumah dah bersenang lenang di atas tilam empuk sentiasa.
beratnya amanah tu, Tuhan saje yang tahu.
sebenarnya aku baru tahu PM adalah menteri kewangan ehek ehek ehek ehek kbaiiii
Monday, December 8, 2014
aku sungguh amat sangat merindukan saat-saat aktif menaip di blogosphere.
apakan daya, balik rumah dengan 20% baki kudrat, serta tahap kemalasan yang nauzubillah, aku terpaksa meninggalkan ini semuaaaa. huahuahua. aku sedih! aku sedih!
banyak benda aku nak taip. tapi cukuplah dengan aku katakan i'm doing fine. i'm really thankful to Allah Ta'ala for guiding me through the way and blessed me with peace and serenity.
dah masuk 3 bulan. emosi dah mula stabil. takde la tiap malam balik rasa nak maki je (kadang-kadang tu ermm hihihi). dah takde asyik nak counting days nak berhenti (oh that countless time i almost cried). bagi aku tahun 2014 adalah tahun yang sedikit pelik sebab untuk julung kalinya orang duk bertanya "umur berapa?"
kali terakhir orang tanya aku rasa aku jawab 15. tiba-tiba dah *ehem*.
jadi untuk 2014 yang membawa aku ke fasa baru ini, aku cuma harap keberkatan dan keredhaan Allah je untuk sepanjang saat aku keluar mencari rezeki. sungguh aku tak tipu aku rindukan zaman belajar dan zaman praktikal. tapi dah sampai masa untuk aku mengorak langkah lebih jauh. dah sampai masa untuk aku melangkah ke fasa seterusnya. dah sampai masa untuk aku berdiri gagah sendiri!
*berdiri pegang obor atas bukit*
aicehcehcehceh.
dah la. aku nak berangan ni. besok nak kembali ke rutin harian. dan sesungguhnya aku tak sabar nak melunaskan perancangan minggu akan datang. biidznillah.
apakan daya, balik rumah dengan 20% baki kudrat, serta tahap kemalasan yang nauzubillah, aku terpaksa meninggalkan ini semuaaaa. huahuahua. aku sedih! aku sedih!
banyak benda aku nak taip. tapi cukuplah dengan aku katakan i'm doing fine. i'm really thankful to Allah Ta'ala for guiding me through the way and blessed me with peace and serenity.
dah masuk 3 bulan. emosi dah mula stabil. takde la tiap malam balik rasa nak maki je (kadang-kadang tu ermm hihihi). dah takde asyik nak counting days nak berhenti (oh that countless time i almost cried). bagi aku tahun 2014 adalah tahun yang sedikit pelik sebab untuk julung kalinya orang duk bertanya "umur berapa?"
kali terakhir orang tanya aku rasa aku jawab 15. tiba-tiba dah *ehem*.
jadi untuk 2014 yang membawa aku ke fasa baru ini, aku cuma harap keberkatan dan keredhaan Allah je untuk sepanjang saat aku keluar mencari rezeki. sungguh aku tak tipu aku rindukan zaman belajar dan zaman praktikal. tapi dah sampai masa untuk aku mengorak langkah lebih jauh. dah sampai masa untuk aku melangkah ke fasa seterusnya. dah sampai masa untuk aku berdiri gagah sendiri!
*berdiri pegang obor atas bukit*
aicehcehcehceh.
dah la. aku nak berangan ni. besok nak kembali ke rutin harian. dan sesungguhnya aku tak sabar nak melunaskan perancangan minggu akan datang. biidznillah.
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